Part of u...

losing one's parent(s) is like losing a piece of u...

b4 this...
u assume u know how it feels losing one's parent(s)
u tell people to bersabar
u tell people to Redha
until u experience it urself.
no words of condolences could actually replace that missing pieces.

u believe ur parents live forever
despite them being in pain
u still believe that they'll always b there for u
Yes they do, they r a part of u
part of who u are
their blood runs thru ur body
they live forever in ur heart

believe that everything happens for a reason n Allah knows best.

29/8/13
edited 2/9/13

Lost and Gone :'(

Yesterday, was the 4th of Ramadhan and what did i feel like doing...? hmmm...extreme generosity was best to  describe. after accompanying mehubby for his med check at the hospital in the afternoon. i went off running some errand. the last stop was to the post office for a bill that is not possible to be made payment online. while filling in the cheque, i put my beloved 7 month old Samsung Galaxy (a birthday present from mehubby) on the counter. then, i waited for my number to come up ~DiNG 1 0 4 7~ WooHoo that was fast i thought. once done i headed back to the car to go...but oh wait...i forgot... to ask about this Western Union International money transfer that i was meaning to ask the clerk about...but then i thought...oh well i'll come back tomorrow...

when i went back to the office mehubby then told me that we were to break our fast with my little sick niece Pink and my BIL at the hospital so i said ok baybeh...then i went about doing my business...
to cut the story short, when we were about to leave for the hospital my SIl was telling me that she's been calling me but that it's gone straight to voice mail n i was like huh what r u taking about?, my pho..ne is...Where the dotdotdotdot  is my PHONE? (promise no swearing during Ramadhan, Sunny!)


in denial, i searched the office, the car, the rooms (while mehubby tried to call the phone which too went straight into voice mail)...in vAiN...half zombie like i sat next to my hubby in the car and backtrack what i did, where i went, what i did & where i stopped that afternoon. OHEMMMGEE....i left my phone at the POST Bl**** OFFICE!!!! it was already 6pm and there wasn't time for us to go back there and check since we had to bit the traffic if we wanted to get to the hospital on time for iftar though i wasn't really into eating anymore....

so people say, it's not the phone that we're worried about, we can always get a new phone or that it's the best excuse to get a new phone and blahblahblah and blahblahblah...it's the contacts in there so they said...yeah try that sentiment when it happens to them one day...let's just hope no one else have to face what i just did.
as for me apart from it's sentimental value, the contacts in there, my thought's, my ideas, my goofy-syok sendiri pictures~the best i could remember...thank God none were controversial ones though (so i hope ;P), my personal expenses, my personal journal about things that are 'unbloggable'. and oh dear my bitching with my besties thru text msgs...my hard to find songs in my micro sd card, my personal reminder, my various alarm reminder (for prayer, for sahur, for Laith's bed time, for Laith's school, tuition, kumon and to remind me to take my memory booster) my dreams, my plans my lists of to do things (daily basis) plus my bucket list...and the list of things in there can just go on and on and on....:'(

i feel naked and exposed...;'(
* now i hope u read this post  u son/ daughter of whatever...(* personal reminder~no swearing Sunny!)  that u also have my all 3 account numbers all ~ Hong Leong, Public Bank and Maybank, just deposit RM200 into each account every month for the rest of ur life, thank u.

imagine the hassles u have to go thru when u lost ur phone.

first things first, i called the telco to cancel the service ( which i will have to apply for a new sim card provided i have a phone that i can insert the sim card in, that is), then i changed all the passwords for all my Gmail accounts-4 all together (my business, my general, my personal, my extra personal accounts..hehehe...) ...which i have sync to the phone, my facebook account (just one), my twitter account and all my blahblahblah other accounts...phewh i managed to change all of 'em before my phone beneficiary got their hands into messing my life with any one of them accounts... *____* so i guess they were not smart enough to figure out how to decode n reset the smart phone hey!

this morning, i went back to the post office just for a closure. it's always 50-50 chance in getting it back...wishful thinking it maybe but there's no harm in trying right...plus it's the month of Ramadhan, who would steal during the holy month right? WRONG!!!
NOPE, no one found it and handed it back to the post office people and basically the post office people denied any knowledge of any phone being left behind yesterday...  ~END~ .

although it wasn't voluntarily, i've probably made someone's day yesterday, so that was probably good too..on my expense -____-

i keep reminding myself that it's just a small test from the Almighty. it was just a phone (regardless that all my personal n business contacts in there) NOT me darling hubby that i still get to lie next to at night or me one and only Laith that i get to see him off to school in the morning and fetch him home from school in the afternoon and say good nite to at bedtime or anyone of my family members or even my health that he decided to take away from me yesterday...Alhamdulillah...
Praise to God too that there are food on my plate that i still get to eat during iftar and sahur, there is still roof over my head, the country is not at war or on natural disaster.... count on ur blessings Sunny!

just hope that my phone beneficiary will look after my virtual families that i've been looking after for the last 21 generations well fed, kept and housed. my fantasy town that i have been working on at level 26. Oh please have a heart, don't post those pictures when i was at the waterfall in Facebook k.

as for now while i start saving up for my next swanky phone, i'll make do with the one that i could throw at that dishonest thieving 'S O' that has taken ownership of my very own personal assistant...if ever..

Have a grand day u people...
Taa.

Sayonara 2011, Good Riddance, Hasta la Vista, babay!!1

unlike all the previous years thru out my life, 2011 is one year that i just can't wait to get rid off as soon as it hits the fist quarter of the year. there were just so many sad happenings thru and thru, from losing someone dear to losing someone new.... there were just too many to list down or this post will never get to be published.:P

as for last year, as usual on the last day of the year; mehubby, Laith & i did some recollection of the past events through out the year.  each one of us listed down what were the highlights of the ups & the downs of the year...
in summary, we all agreed that  the Singapore trip to Universal Studios that we made in September (which i have yet to post) was about the only  thing that we mutually enjoyed. Laith also mentioned that his Birthday party was superb and the best he'd ever had ( Hmmm...how about the one before that and the ones before that and that...? ) & hinted that he wants another party just like it this year.:P
we also unanimously agreed that losing our newborn lil nephew~Suffian Mikhail was the saddest moment in our life. it was one trying moment emotionally. for the family.
as for myself, there were quite a few more events that i would rather not write about which was equally heartbreaking & buckets of tears 'wasting' moments....:'(
oh and not to forget the trips that i had to make to Laith's school for being caught misbehaving quite a number of times...*___________*...what a nightmare! :(
~stern WARNING to Laith: "u better behave well this year dear boy or else..'' (let's just hope i don't have to finish that sentence ever....)

still i believe( i can fly) that everything that happens, happens for a reason, we may find out ( the whys) later on or perhaps will remain a mystery but every cloud has a silver lightning. take every moment as part of our learning process and always, always  count on our blessings...

So let's Welcome 2012 with open dragon's arms... hope that whatever the year has to offer, it shall be better than it was last year ( for me personally).this  year may be predicted as the beginning of the end but who are we to predict, let's leave that to the mighty Lord to decide, shall we...;)

well, may be it's 12 days too late but: Happy New Year Everyone!!!

 

enjoy it while u can...;P

KFC Krushers vs McDonald Mcflurry

Dear KFC, U suck!!
after making me, myhubby & son tasted & then hooked on them Krushers, they are not available at any one of your outlet in Semenyih nor Kajang area! u have 4 outlets which are closed by to each other in Semenyih area alone but not ONE, i repeat NOT ONE of it serves those sinfully yummy Krushers!!! it's been months now since u've launched them, and everytime we go (at one of ur 4 outlets ( and sometime all four since they are so near to each other) in Semenyih) and ask for them Krushers, ur staff would simply answer" we don't serve them, mam."
like what??? do u think we ( the people in Kajang) are that remote or too 'kampung' to enjoy ur oh so freaking awesome  Krushers???  last nite, we tried our luck again and went to your outlet in Kajang (metro point) only to be told the only outlet that actually serve them Krushers is in Bangi. say what? that is like 35 minutes drive away, u ignoramus!!! so the only time we could get our Krushers fix is when we go out of Kajang, how sad...:(
anyway it's ur loss, we can't have them gorgeous Krushers we'll just substitute with McFlurry instead...those Cornetto McFlurry, Cookies & Cream & Milo Supreme are just as yummy & to die for too u know... ;P

don't b rude...

know how it feels when someone abruptly hung up on u (note:u as a friend not a tele- marketeer (which people often do) cos they don't get u to agree to things their way?

it is equivalently similar feeling to when someone slam the 'freaking' door in ur face! (Note: not that u're a MLM direct seller or a door to door sale person selling hairdryer mind u (...err hairdryer??? which people often do of course) but as once claimed best friend :'(

the initial reaction to that would of course be~DoubleU(2xU)TeeEFF MF shock! then followed by the combinations of  anger, hurt, anguish, dishearten..well u get the idea...and finally u'll just resolve to...WhatEVER!!!

*pictures are all courtesy of google image.

the unplanned outing....bomb scare @ Jaya33

didn't planned to do any outing on Monday but when mehubby asked if i'd like to come along with him running some errands i did the Destiny's Child~ Jumpin' Jumpin' performance...my very own version of course..:D
at that instant, i suddenly thought... i needed to get some supplies for my cuppies at Wilton Section 14 P.J, 'if only u're heading that way sayang" i said hinting.:D..his reply was ...oh bless his heart..."we're going to meet up with LAG at KJ so that's not a problem at all."
of course heading down to section 14, PJ during lunch hour is never a good idea so we decided to park the car at Jaya 33 purely for stress free purposes...or so we thought.

anyway...going to Wilton is like a taste of heaven but with RM sign price tags on each items! *_____*
so after getting most of the things in my baking shopping list along with some that was not in the list :P  and after a stop over at digital mall for mehubby's replacement mobile phone battery we headed back to Jaya 33 for lunch @Subway & heading back home after that since Laith has Kumon class that evening.

as we walked across the pedestrian bridge towards the mall we saw people rushing out from the building with a couple of police cars parked at the valet parking spots but we took not much interest thinking that they were doing some drama shooting or they were having some VIPs or celebrities around the vicinity or just simply a routine fire drill by the management...hungry for food we kept on walking thru the main entrance without anyone stopping even though there were people rushing out & passing us with panic faces, so we took it as a good sign that in a few minutes we will be sitting down at the Subway outlet & enjoy those scrumptious sandwiches...damn i can already taste it in my mouth when we got to the outlet it was literally abandoned, no one eating, no body serving at the counter... so we thought "oh well then...let's head home instead & find somewhere to eat on the way..."

so we headed to the autopay station which then at the time cost us RM2 but the machine would not accept the money so we stood there wondering what's going on while people keep coming out of the lifts and hurrying out but none said anything to us...so i decided to go ask around when a building security approached ( well not quite 'approach' as to say just sort of ordering more like) us to wait outside....hmmm....*____*

as we joined the crowd we heard some snippets here & there about a bomb scare... & as we listen to one police officer explaining to some of the crowd he said, "we received a phone call saying that there is a bomb placed at the building, we don't know how true, but we want to make sure that we vacate everyone out of the building'.

since we could not enter the building & retrieve our car... & we sort of said farewell to it in the event that the bomb did eventually explod we walked back across the road & ended up having KFC for lunch... err.the KFC famous bowl sucks, i tell u..if only they actually mentioned that it's actually a hot pot i would not have tried it! erghhh...

these are the few pictures that i bothered snapping ( the view from the pedestrian bridge) cos i was too hungry to worry about anything else...and who knows it might also be my last meal ever hey!

even with us taking our own sweet time trying to enjoy our lunch...NOT! the waiting took forever...after lunch we went back to see if it's ok to enter n retrieve the car...hmmm..NOT!

so we went into the post office & continue waiting like *dungu again...hmmm...not knowing what to do people just start queuing up buying stamps & we started making assumptions that this must be the work of the post office people (across from Jaya 33) to actually boost up their stamp sale...:P as we got tired waiting in the post office, we walked along the shops & see lots of people waited (most of whom work at Jaya 33) while having a drink or two with their colleagues at the mamak restaurants, cafe & bistros...so we thought it must be the work of the kedai Mamak to boost up their businesses...as we walked on we saw more people inside the McDonald's outlet...hmmm it could also be the work of Mc Donald's to boost up their business...& so we walked some more...until finally we reached Secret Recipe & decided to pop in & help boost  up their business so we had coffee & tea, slices of cakes & more tea to drink...
& so we ate & drank & read & chat & when we started to have soar butts we decided to go back & see if we could finally & safely retrieve our car...

after about 3 & 1/2 hours of waiting finally we were free to go into the mall & the parking fee soared up to RM10!!! so we decided that the bomb scare has to be the work of the parking management to boost up their parking collections! :(

hence the end of my first bomb scare experience....

lets graph -: No Discrimination (we like to help everybody)

lets graph -: No Discrimination (we like to help everybody)

what if...

as i sit & wait...
i wonder..
what if...these..
all these... happen to me?
what if after all the waiting...
all the tears...
all the sacrifices
they all come down to nothing?

would i be blaming someone?
would i be pointing my fingers at anyone?
would i be making life hell for everyone?

then i realized
i repented...
if i do that would everything be alright?
If i do that i'll be blaming no one but GOD.
so i pray...

Dhaniah, Get well!

neonatal ICU- HUKM. 12:50pm 31.03.11

Music Monday #7~ a tribute...

Monday is here again....
unlike any other MM entries in the past, this is a rather difficult post to write.
last week hasn't been an easy week for all of us in the family...in conjunction to that i'm playing these two songs as a tribute...

here is why...

myBIL` Jomey's wife~ Aisha had given birth to premature set of twins (a boy & a girl) at 6& 1/2 months...short of another 2 weeks into their 7th month to be in a safer condition to being born prematurely...baby boy~ Suffian Miqhail @860gms & baby girl Nur Dania @ 820gms  last Thursday. both babies had to be put under the Intensive Care Unit for support & observation though they were reported in stable condition when born...barely 2 days later both Suffian Miqhail & Nur Dania were said to be suffering from pneumonia.
Suffian Miqhail passed away later that nite...:'(
Nur Dania on the other hand is still holding on...
it was a devastating news to all of us...especially when getting pregnant is not as easy as ABC nor cheap to all of us 3 girls in- law in the family :'(:'(:'(
we thought... when Aisha got pregnant, the curse has finally been lifted off but i guess it's only a teaser... :(

we held a simple funeral for Suffian Miqhail yesterday morning with much regrets, sorrow & pain...

& for some reasons this song by Annie Lenox keeps on playing in my mind during this mournful time...



to the first niece in this little family(of 4 cousin brothers) ~ Nur Dania. hang tough baby Chumi, we can't wait to spoil u rotten PINK! keep on fighting, we are all here to pray for ur health. please fight for ur mama, ur papa, ur Big brother Suffian Miqhail, he'd given up his share for u sweetheart...& please, please,please... fight for all of us too...



to my little nephew, Suffian Miqhail~  i guess u gave way to ur baby sis huh!?
well, this world is a cruel place to be in after all. u're in a better, safer place with our Lord Creator now Chicky!  Rest in Peace dear darling baby boy.

to Jomey & Aisha, be strong guys. Be strong for Dania, she's depending on u both to be able to fight her way to stay alive through this testing moment of her life...
Love u guys...

to all my dear friends, please pray for little Nur Dania for a chance to live & PINK our little family full with Blue... thank U!:)
 

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Jazz Dancing, No More..

i think my days at learning how to jazz dance is over...:(
after the 2 weeks Chinese New Year's break early February, class was suppose to resume the following week.  however on my class day, meyubby had a late meeting hence i had no car to get to the class. i called the dance center & told them that i won't be able to make it that week but will be going back in the week after. they said it's ok since the light's were out at the center anyway! hmmm...strike One. they didn't even bother to let me know if i hadn't called! anyway since there was only one week left till March i said i'll join back in in March instead...so i was Wednesday free the whole of February to be able to watch Glee! :P

then last week while watching the telly, the center manager called telling me that since they're heavy at preparing for their annual concert this Month, she informed me that class will not be resumed until later date of which i will be informed ( i assumed). oh and btw she said..would i like to join their Aerobic class on Friday instead since my dance intructor thought i would be more suitable at it... what a cheek! so that's my Strike TWO!

i'm kinda sulking at the moment... we'll see what other alternative they have for me cos Friday is our sleep over at my parents day or i want my deposit back!


have a great day peeps!

it's Bunny year this year, Not RAT! wait in line MIckey!

recently, the house has been under Rat Attack! we've never experienced such horror ever since we've moved to the house about 3 & a half years ago. Guess Rat / mouse (can never tell the difference~Mickey including)is my Fear Factor Numero UNO, can't stand the sight of them...

they just freak me out... like really, really freak me out...like once during my college year, i saw a dead rat on the floor on the way to the kitchen & i just lost it...unfortunately, it was during my exam week too & what happened was unforgivable~ instead of sitting for the Economic paper that, i had my head believed that i was sitting for a sociology paper!! like WTFudge!!!
& once, i went to a night market in the area with my SIL & accidentally (of course i did, i would not in anyway still able and alive purposely do that would i) stepped on a flatten~crushed- dried up Rat on the road...& when my SIL pointed it out, my body stiffened & instantly dragged...( & for some reason the feet felt heavy too) my feet back to the house...*______*

so anyway, the last couple of nights i was practically walking around the house on the stools, chairs & counter tops to avoid the Rat collide...aiyaiyai...;C
mehubby managed to trap one but somehow it manged to get away in the morning cos accordingly, it's just a small lil mickey hence it managed to squeeze thru the trap wire...whatever u call it..i don't even want to know..:(

Now now...it's either they go, or we'll just have to move out from the house, how does that sound!?

Blueberry Cheese tartlets minus the filling..

last sunday, my son laith n i planned to bake some blueberry cheese tartlets together but we ran out of  the cream cheese so off we went to grab some  at the bakery shop. since i was quite in a hurry to get the spring cleaning done before we could proceed with our  baking plan, i grabbed the first 'C' cheese that i saw in the chiller

Laith was all excited about it that he planed  to bring some to school for his teachers and friends to share.

once the pastry was finally in the oven, it's time to make the cheese filling...so out came all the ingredients plus the main ingredients the Cream cheese! while measuring the icing sugar i took a glance at the cheese packaging cos somehow i just realized that it didn't look like the usual Phili cream cheese that we normally use and my heart suddenly stopped beating for a second....yep, instead of 'Cream' cheese, i bought a 'Cheddar'cheese instead!!! oops maBaaad!! :P

 

it was too late to go out and get the cream chese from the store, so i kept the tartlet shells in a container n stored in the fridge for out next day complete blueberry cheese tartlets attempt....oh btway at this point, laith had refuse to talk to me for the failed mission....

but the sulking only lasted for just a bit cos the next day he was all smile again when we finally managed to finished the job and even baked a second batch.

he brought some to school the next day and proudly told me later that some of his friends want to order some those tartlets from him.  

the solemnization of Ariff Alsukor & Syida Rosihan

yeah i know.... it took me ages to write this post...it's basically long overdue... well in my defense, this simply bcos i am still in denial. BIG TIME!!! my first born nephew ( the eldest son of my eldest brother~ A1) has decided to end his bachelorhood days to his childhood sweetheart during his primary years in penang, end of last year.

accordingly (this is their story), they lost contact for a long, long time until FB reconnected them. when my brother~A1 texted me asking us to block 'the date' last year, we did so thinking that he wanted to have some kind of family gathering of sort. a  week later came the news that ariff was actually getting married! oh what joy a family gathering indeed!!! (i was being sarcastic actually...boohoo...;( shoot me!

i was like WHAT!??? he's only a child as far as i'm concern?  which male species ever get married at the age of 24?  what does that suppose to mean, that he's getting old? mmm.... yeah i thought so...;P

but, how is that possible? he was still in diapers not so long ago!!! & yes this post claims so many unNecessary exclamation marks i know...to those who gets annoyed with it do bear with me...cos i'm like moaning & whining right now, ok!!!

on top of that i am an aunt-in law? already? gosh i can't even begin to imagine if & when they deicde to get pregnant later.... like hopefully not so soon....what would that makes me!??? *_____*

moan or no moan..here are some of the pics to share....

as much as i was in denial, i helped him with the henna with my symbols~Love Sunny...hehhehe :P

yep, huge & old *___*

during the solemnization..

here comes the bride...

sweet syida, the one that makes me an aunt-in law...

 rings exchange ceremony...

 a symbol to signify the moment where the couple is legally allowed to touch each other

 my(also in a state of ) in- denial eldest brother~A1 can't blame him either he only just turned 50 last year...& meSIL.

the happy couple in a different costume during the bersanding & dinner...

cake cutting ceremony...

see what i mean when i said he's only a child???

...someone still has to feed him!!! ;P

till the next post on Ariff & syida's wedding reception pics on the groom's side...stay tune...
in fact i have so many overdue posts that i only managed to blog in my head due to laziness~ full-stop. ;P